Camila Cabello is on the road with Taylor Swift now, but she just wrapped up her very first headlining tour in Europe, and just released a video tour diary of that time. The mini-doc takes us behind the scenes of her tour, alternating between fan interviews & shots from the stage, with Camila narrating her experience.

"I feel like the never be the same tour has changed my life because this has been my first time really talking to a crowd… really like telling my story & opening up & being vulnerable. And talking about what these songs are about, who I am, how I feel, how I felt before in my life. How I react to heartbreak & hurt. I think it’s the most vulnerable I’ve ever been, and I’ve always been, like, even though it doesn’t seem like it, when it comes to public speaking & talking to people I’ve always been really really painfully shy… I think that this has changed my life in the sense that I feel so safe in this environment. I feel so loved with the people that I love all around me – my fans all around me – that it does feel like when I’m talking to the crowd, I’m talking to my friends."

Check out the clip above to get a feel for Camila, and tune in to the MTV VMAs tonight (Monday, August 20th) to see if she takes home the Artist of The Year moonman!

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